As the days went by, my boss told me the new project he is planning to set up and his new ideas in the business as well as how to make the business grow since it was competitive. I was absent-minded to all his discussions and Whenever he is done talking about the step to take towards the development of his company, he goes on to tell me how lucky I am for him to accept me to work with him and how fortunate I am to get my first working experience with him. Without a doubt, i’d have a lot of experience particularly in using Microsoft excel and also increasing my typing speed. But, the truth is i’m already tired of this work and each day,i seek for a story to tell him so that he can make me quit but to no profit and it’s making me more discouraged. Each time I complain about my discomfort in the office he tries all means to make me comfortable. As prior specified, he is like an uncle to me, and he never took advantage of me. He regarded me like how a lady ought to be regarded. I think he finds it difficult to let me go because he trusts me with his finance or a few intangible qualities best known to him but I always put in my best in all I do.😊😊

I kept pushing and doing my regular activities at work. A month later, I told my boss i wanted to resign. He inquired of the reason and i told him i wanted a change of job because, i was no longer comfortable going on errands on motor bikes under the rain or sun and most times,i barely get to sit down. I told him it was not my kind of job, and I’m no longer comfortable doing what I’ve been doing. He said he was aiming to stop sending me on errands outside the office and he will employ someone and dole out that task to the person. He told me there would be no need to worry, and a new employee will take that task I concurred to what he told me but I was not satisfied with what he said.I had already made up my mind to quit I was tired of the job and the environment even if he no longer sends me on errands on motorbikes, I do not like the nature of the job. I felt pouring out the words in my heart to him that moment might mean I’m ungrateful so, I kept it all inside and complained to myself.

As time went on, his business began to expand more and he adjusted to this growth. He moved to a bigger office, and he started having a lot of contracts I was there through all these growth as his executive assistant and his first employee I practically did a lot of work and added to the success of his establishment. Part of my job description include running errands sometimes I use motor bikes, I also give and prepare reports, schedule appointment, cash cheques and prepare documents. I was happy I became busy and I found happiness in what I was doing not because it’s my passion but the fact I was busy and good at what I was doing. Towards the middle of the year, I no longer felt the vibe I use to feel when I just started the job not because I am not strong to continue but the fact that my passion does not lie in what I was doing started making me sad. I communicated with my mother and told her I do not like the job and I will want to stop she encouraged me to continue she said it’s hard getting a job and a bird at hand is worth two in the bush.

Two years back, the reverse was the case. I ignored my bliss at first. Getting a work after school was difficult for me not because I failed in school or I was in competent but there are certain connections one ought to have with conspicuous individuals in order to be connected to a work, not just any work but a great paying job but a few still get a job indeed without connection but the possibility is exceptionally slim. I am talking about my country. So, i was among the individuals who were not fortunate to get a job at that time. My mother introduced me to a family companion and informed him about my work status as being unemployed he said if he is informed about a good job opening he will notify me. Meanwhile, he is a clearing agent and he suggested i work with him pending on when i get a better job. I preferred the idea since I was bored staying at home when everybody goes to work I followed him each day to work except weekends. I was his executive assistant and I take instructions directly from him.

Happiness is a choice and if I’m ever making a choice in this life, it is to be happy. There’s no substitution for the emotion happiness whatever robs you away of your happiness or peace of mind please, avoid it like plague.unhappiness leads to depression it takes away healthily minds. Most times, the word Happiness is underrated and a few individuals select riches over happiness. I’m not saying their choice is off-base besides, money is a necessity but it can’t supplant genuine happiness.
When I was much more youthful, I enjoyed observing plants develop particularly beans they are so simple to develop from seed. I’m usually overwhelmed with fervor to observe it alter from seeds to plants with roots and stems. Usually, there’s this joy in me when it’s time to cook beans at home because it’s a time to choose out few beans for planting, I just throw them within the soil in a specific zone in my compound and after few days, the seeds start sprouting. It was so energizing to see how the seeds changed and though, planting isn’t my thing and I’m not into it as my mother but observing the seeds I planted alter daily, was an accomplishment to me and I was satisfied.
You’re in charge of how you feel, you’re in charge of your HAPPINESS.

Sometimes, you might not get the opportunity to meet the individual to ask for forgiveness it could be the individual is inaccessible for you or could be distance but you must do yourself a huge favor by apologizing to yourself, telling yourself you’re sorry and you merit forgiveness. You need to hear it from you before it can mean anything from someone else. Also, mistakes are bound to happen, and it is a fact. But mistakes vary some can be ignored whereas a few appear so big to be neglected which depends on what you have done.Though, I am not empowering the fact that you ought to make deliberate mistakes because you will eventually pardon yourself but I am saying that irrespective of what it is that’s making you pitiful or depressed or making you feel it’s impossible to pardon yourself, I need to let you know self-destructive considerations and all negative thoughts isn’t an option to bring you down.You merit a second chance. God’s forgiveness for us has no limit we are his children and it is never his wish we die in our sins.

Let us also examine the story of Mary Magdalene in the book of Luke chapter 7 verse 37. A woman of the city whom they all regarded as a sinner, she strolled in to where Jesus was having a supper with his followers. She is known to have an ugly past as a prostitute and immoral woman, but she comes up behind Jesus and stoops at his feet tears fell from her eyes onto his feet and she wipes them with her long hair. She carefully kisses his feet and pours on them fragrant oil she has bought, but they all looked with disapproval (in the book of Luke chapter 7 verse 39) When the Pharisee saw this, he said to himself, If this man truly were a prophet, he would know who this woman is who is touching him; he would know what kind of sinful life she lives!”
But their word at this point did not matter to Jesus he could see the heartfelt apology for her immoral life and he forgave her even if everybody condemned her. For Magdalene to sum up the mettle to walk to Jesus, in spite of what she has been named as, is a bold step and she would not have been able to do this if she did not recognize her fault and pardon herself first before going to meet Jesus.

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As prior said, forgiveness is a process and it’s a huge decision to make but it’s a positive decision which has a positive effect on you. Firstly, recognize that you simply have done something bad,acknowledge that you have taken a wrong choice or you have taken a terrible action. Once you have, recognize this, then it is simple to tell yourself you merit forgiveness or you merit another chance before you seek it elsewhere.Let me take our mind back to the holy bible in the book of Luke chapter 15:11-32 it tells the story of the prodigal child who asked that his father gives him his share of riches even before his father’s death. Of course, his father gave him his share, and he left the house but he did not utilize the riches given to him shrewdly instead, he misused it and lived a lavish way of life. He took an awful choice, but you know what? Let’s hear what he said in the book of Luke chapter 15 verse 18.

‘I will get up and go to my father and say:father, I have trespassed against God and against you.”

He made this choice to go back to his father because he recognized his fault and saw reasons to grant himself another chance. He forgave himself first before making up his mind to go and seek for forgiveness before his father.

I know it isn't simple irrespective of what you have done. While some are battling to pardon, a few are nearly within the process so you should not give up completely on yourself. It's only if you sum up the boldness to forgive yourself then you'll be able to forgive others. Difficulty with not pardoning self might lead to suicidal thoughts, destitute eating habits, intemperate liquor utilization, and a few others which are not healthy. Your health ought to be your priority and when I talk about, I'm not just referring to great nourishment and balanced diets or sound drinks but I'm too talking about emotional stability and how you're able to live a sound life. Let's make a reference to the bible in the book of Ephesians chapter 4:31-32 get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, brawling, and slander along with every frame of malice. The message is evident in the word of God if this bitterness, rage, anger is stored up, it disrupts sound living. I'm not forcing pardoning on you but, pardoning comes with great advantage. A mind free from bitterness, a mind free from outrage, rage, slander, constitutes a sound life. 
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Firstly, in order to forgive there’s a need for communication with yourself or the person that should be forgiven. When it comes to communication with you, the need for reflection comes in. It is a point where you reflect on your action and the ought to give yourself another chance. If you do not forgive, guilt will suddenly crawl in which can lead to shame and shame makes you feel awful about yourself which also makes you feel inferior and leads to low self-esteem and develop to depression. St. Paul use to persecute Christians in the past but, he refused to let his past affect his present. God gave him a chance, and he took a chance on himself by also forgiving himself of his wrong doings after God forgave him and he did not allow blame to creep on him he never permitted his past to define how far he can go. Even when he began preaching and people were frightened of him and mumbled how he killed Christians in the past, He was full of certainty preaching the word of God.